Movie Survey::

Action: Kill Bill! (Watching it now :)

Romantic: Mamma Mia!

Horror: A Nightmare on Elm Street

Thriller: Seven

Adventure: Hmm..Narnia! :)

Sci Fi: Star Trek

Crime: Would "The Outsiders" be considered a crime film?

Animated: The Lion King

Classic: To Kill A Mockingbird

Historical: An American Affair (:

Drama: Divine Secrets of the Ya-ya Sisterhood

It's been awhile! Haha. School has totally clogged my schedule. :(
This is just an update. I DO still come here, I just don't have time to log in and post entries very often. Plus, I have to use a different computer.

I'm getting re-takes.
My picture was shit.

I hate picture day. I didn't even bother to dress up. I just wore what I would on a regular day. I didn't want to be someone else just because my picture was being taken. I think a lot of kids thought the same thing. Others just wanted to get into the Freshman Five. One of my friends did get irratated by  one of the photographers. The photographer said, "Get your hair out of your face."
"I don't want to."
"Do we have a problem here?"
"Oh, no sir."
I think the guy was just doing his job. He may have been worn from the day considering that we were the last group.

I made a CD of spanish music for my spanish class the other day. I put Shakira, Selena, Nelly Furtado, and some Julieta lady on it. What's funny is that I didn't even listen to the entire CD. We  don't really know much so, if someone was singing about giving a blow-job or getting high under a bridge we wouldn't know.Hahaha, I can so imagine her listening it and coming across something dirty. I guess it's a good thing that she's listening to it before she has everyone else listens.

Anyways, I'll be in the parade on Saturday. I'll be lightly tossing *cough* violently throwing *cough* candy at people. Yeah, maybe if I kiss a teachers ass, I'll be able to sit on the orchestra trailer. It'll be fun anyways because I get to hang with my daywalker friend. Yeah..he's a friggin daywalker alright. lol.

Oh, I'll also be seeing a local band called Damaged Goods. They're pretty good! :D

When I go to History I feel: Ready

When I go to the Library I feel: Safe

When I go to Art I feel: Laid Back

When I go to Gym I feel: Careless

When I go to Science I feel: Insecure

When I go to Spanish I feel: Fun

When I go to Lunch I feel: Safe Again

When I go to English I feel: Intelligent

When I go to Math I feel: Dirty

I don't even know how to talk about it or what to say. My thoughts won't stop and I'm losing control. I have to ask what's real and what's not because the line between the two has blurred. You see, when I try to talk about it, it disappears. You have to catch me in the moment. I over-analyze and think way too much. It's like trying to get a bad image out of your head. It's there and you keep picturing it, but it won't go away. Then, you start asking yourself, "What if that was...?"

MJ tribute was so KICKASS!!!!! It's too bad the Kanye incident overshadowed it. Janet gave a totally killer performace, and the montage was great. The dancing was top notch, and I kinda wished it could have been a little longer.

In short: Russell Brand wins at life. Yes, he does.

Shakira and Taylor Lautner take the stage and now I'm wishing I had her body. lol. Shakira is actually my name for Spanish class. Moving on...They present the award for best female artist. To my surprise, Taylor Swift wins. I'm like "WTF!?!?', at the screen, but that's nothing compared to my reaction to Kanye West's actions. I'm sure you all know the story. He totally interuppted Taylor and stole her moment. I felt anguish for her, not gonna lie. I may have wanted someone else to win, but goddamn. The look on Taylors face was so sad, and it made me sad too. Screw Kanye. I <3 Tay.

Next thing I can remember is the Lady Gaga performace. That woman is insane, dramatic, and theatrical as hell. She never ever bores me and I could watch that performace millions of times and never get bored. Her outfits were nuts, and she doesn't give a flying fuck about what anyone thinks. Honestly, I totally admire her and she deserved that best artist award. :)

Umm. So what's next? Oh! I do believe Green Day winning the award for best Rock vid was before or after Gaga. They totally deserved it. Their performance was so amazing. I have seen them live myself, and let me tell you, It's one of the most brilliant ever. They put on one hell of a show. Oh and I'll say this: HAPPY BIRTHDAY JACOB!. :D

I'm pretty much telling this out of order, but oh well. Beyonce's performance was excellent. Dancing was amazing. Now let's talk about her receiving award for video of the year..Hmm...Beyonce is a classy woman and It makes me smile that she had Taylor come onstage for her speech. I can say that I admire her for that.

Pink's performance was stunning. I would have been scared as hell if I were in her place, but she pulled it off beautifly.  I was so terrified that she was going to fall but she didn't! Thank god for that! I love her, one of my favorite performances of the night.

Who are these people?

He died on September 6th and today was his funeral. He was a 25 year old father, soldier, son, and husband. I don't even know his full name. It makes me feel bad. The funeral was boring as hell, service was nice. I kinda wanted to see his body, but I was scared that I would laugh, then fall and the floor and cry like a baby. I'm just weird like that. I swear my emotions are so delayed...

It would have been better if I actually knew any of the people there. Too bad my grandmother couldn't introduce me. Those people treat her like god because she took care of them and she's getting old. Really? They never call, visit, or contact her in any way. So why should I believe that they really care? Why is she so special all of a sudden? Whatever. I wish people wouldn't be so afraid of the truth.

Anyways, we went to Petsmart after. People always bring their dogs, and thats why I love Petsmart. A woman adopted a bulldog and she let me pet him and take pictures. He was the sweetest thing. :) Then, a cute guy and his mom brought in their Cocker Spaniel, which I totally flipped out at because she was the cutest dog ever. She was jumping all over him and licking his face. It was so sweet! The guy must have seen me smile because he smiled back. So maybe the day wasn't so bad after all. lol.

Oh and I made forty bucks today. :D

I had nightmares last night. You don't know how real or terrible they are until you've been in them.

First nightmare: I actually had a father, but this one was a son of a bitch. I'll take no father over this one. He kidnapped my brothers. He kidnapped them. Next thing I know, my smallest brother is on our doorstep, telling us to call the police because my other brother is still missing. Then, I'm on the phone with 911. I tell them about what happened, and do you know what she says in the most careless voice I have ever heard?

"We found the body yesterday."

Second nightmare: I'm not sure if the entire thing is a nightmare, but I remember fragments. I was in water and I was actually swimming. Okay, so far so good. I remember a guy. I think he loved me, because I swear I could feel his hug even though I was asleep. Plus, you know how guys usually pull away when they hug a girl? Well, this one didn't want to, and I just held on. My mom walked by and asked if I could hold him any tighter. Cheesy I know, but don't tell me you wouldn't want to feel like that.

It morphed. No surprisingly into a bad dream. I was in a house, that was dusty and I remember it having an all around porch. Everything was dusty and dark with corpse-like statues. Turns out, this was my new home. Something happened which I'd like to forget. A 2 foot person with mousy brown hair, a purple shirt and short skirt walked by the kitchen table. I asked who she was and she didn't reply. I asked again and my mother blurted, "They never loved you!". It was out of character for my mother to say something like that. She was almost into the kitchen when I screamed, "WHO THE HELL ARE YOU!?!" Here's the scary part. She ran to the sink so quick, and grabbed a massive bloody knife and ran to my legs. I didn't wake up right after, and I have no clue why.

You'll probably think I'm nuts, and that I'm making this up, but I've always been able to recall at least fragments of my dreams. I've found too many simalarities with these dreams and my real life.

I'm scared of getting old. Sounds crazy to me, but I figured it out last night. Maybe not getting old, but wasting my time and before I know it I'm 32. Oh god. I just turned 14 and I'm scared of turning 32? What's so significant about that number? Really, It came to me in this crazy dream....nightmare actually.

....Which is true, but it's a shit excuse for doing what you did.
By the way, it's good to live your life to the fullest, but that does not mean I'm going to become a pot-head thank you very much. I'd prefer to be in control rather than let people I dunno take advantage of my body when I'm un-aware.

Anyways. Has anyone seen Gamer? I'd recommend it. Now that film actually made me feel something. It bothered me. Maybe because losing control terrifies me, and the movie just shoved that in my face. I don't think a film has ever really done that to me before. It may not be a masterpiece, but I enjoyed it. Plus, they did play The Bad Touch. :)

....No, really? Wtf? Here are three films (Pix included) that need to get their asses into theatres, already.

School started on Monday. My computer is being a bitch. So sorry for not posting, commenting, etc.

Should I tell you guys about the Green Day concert?

Well me and my buddy  get there and we get so anxious around people. There was a shit ton of people! Seriously, we were freaking out like craaazzy! Anyways, we bought shit tickets, but we got relocated to the very front next to the barracades. Billie Joe was like 6 or 7 feet away from us. The downside to our seats was that, we got some asshats behind us and my friend really really wanted to hurt them, but he didn't because he is a sweetheart. :)

Franz Ferdinand opened and I cannot tell you how much I effing loved them. They put on one hell of a show, and so did Green Day. :D

OMG FUNNEH VIDS

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wqpq3tpy9Ug&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EFVA389S8Go&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4dZeqgW28T0&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tZmDWltBziM